Checking in Blue Moon Eve

Hello Wonders,
  I am starting to hear so much...must be opening up to the voices of my spirit guides, The Creator, all of your spirits, my own intuition and the words of our author. It's been a full week!

   The week was full of many different feelings and an overall feeling of movement. Several times, I heard my own intuitive or brave voice tell me what to do...or challenge me.  And I honored it by listening.  Unfortunately, I also had a difficult time doing what I told myself to do.  One morning, I woke up and set 4 goals upon waking...and did just the opposite of two of them within the hour.  I was going to move more (I did do some elliptical walking).  I was going to be nicer to our dog even though I have written her off.  Bob has been gone and, though Emily has been walking her each day, she needs much more and was pretty naughty.  Negative attention better than none.  But, after I did a bunch of nice things for her in the morning and spoke to her lovingly, she stole and began to eat my sunglasses.  As usual, she thought "drop it" is a game you play to make Ann chase you around the kitchen.  I lost it,,,again.  I was also going to avoid talking about people behind their back and I failed over and over.  At the end of the day, I asked myself why I needed to avoid that kind of talk.  I summized it is because of 1. A frequent feeling of loneliness and a great desire to connect with people, 2. A need to process feelings that might have been stirred up by someone and 3. Because I have so many bad thoughts about who I am, I expect perfection from others.

  Today, I started the day by saying "I will not try to be something today.  I will just be and I invite the creator in.  It was a much better day than most have been lately.  I liked the staff of my least favorite school, appreciating all the small gestures of smiles, laughter, honesty, comforting, giving.  I chose to embark on a potentially uncomfortable discussion for the purpose of clearing the air and it allowed for much relief.  I avoided sugar and I took a long walk to start the day...with Nali (the dog).

  I have done my artist's pages every day.  My artist's date will be Saturday but I'm counting that for this week so I can have another one in the middle of next week!

  I read our chapter and did the assignments,  I didn't really relate to the crazy maker stuff,  I loved the direction for the week to make an effort to be open minded.  And, I adored the idea of getting through life by paying attention.  Lovely.  I will hold that image of Julia sitting on the hill in her sweater in the moonlight after her mom died for a long time.  Guess I was paying attention!

  I will stop there lest you call me a crazymaker! I do want to share my excitement, before I close, that I bought w book called The Artist's Date book which I'm eager to share with you.  And, from a favorite little book of mine called "The Woman's book of Empowerment," I leave you with this affirmation: "I am filled with an unlimited, inexhaustible supply of divine love.  There is no greater love than the love that created my soul.  My divine creator fills me with power.  I am comfortable knowing that I am loved for who I am because I am a unique expression of creation.  I am in love with my true self." Charlene M. Proctor